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You can keep your religion.
This probably won’t sit well with most. But I’m not really here to make sure things sit well with anyone, am I? I told you I would be real, honest, and hopefully say the things that are on most of our minds but not one person speaks about. That’s the thing with living “behind the screen” – I can say what I want with all the bravery I wish I had when not “behind the screen”. An introvert such as myself needs time to process the correct words I desire to speak to communicate my point clearly and with all the emotion I feel. It’s typically a lengthy and drawn…
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Veering off the path.
It was a beautiful fall day. One of my most treasured activities in life is being able to take my big dog, Nina, out for walks. Nina is a greyhound/lab mix. She’s pure white and absolutely stunning. Being the mix she is she loves to run! Sad thing that it is she is getting old, 11 right now, and her poor body can’t keep up with her puppy like mind. On this gorgeous day I decided to find the nearest dirt road. The dirt road we found wasn’t often traveled so it made for a perfect spot to let Nina off the leash. Honestly, I love just being able to…
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Tattooed, pierced, and loved.
How does church make you feel? Weird first question? Perhaps. I want to know how you feel about it. Do you feel uncomfortable? Why? (**I would love feedback here…in comments!**) I’ve been there. Heck, sometimes I’m still there. For me it is because I feel like people can see me (duh…right?). I don’t like people looking at me because I feel like they are judging me in some way. In my early church days I would do whatever would make me blend in the most. Whatever those around me were doing I would do. This way I would be safe from judgement. I couldn’t wait to “put my time in”…
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A broken wing.
We’ve all been there. Its 7:43 AM and you are rushing out the door. The commute to work takes roughly 15 minutes if you go slightly above the speed limit. You know, as long as there are no surprises along the way, you will arrive just on time. God is good! Right? Or am I wrong? Because as soon as you get to thinking “oh yea, definitely gonna make it on time”, BAM! Old lady McGee pulls out in front of you and it’s plain to see she isn’t in any hurry. (no offense Mrs. McGee:)) Now, of course we do what we do. Depending on who you are and…
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Roller coaster faith.
It just keeps coming up. The darkness within me. Everyone has it. We are made new in Christ when we are saved but darkness lingers still. Those little black fingers of Satan try to grip your heart and your mind. As soon as he gets a little pinch of you your past starts flooding back reminding you of when you cheated, lied, spewed unkind words, had an abortion, gave up on your faith, [enter your sin here]. And, if you are suited in God’s armor then you know you are under attack. Satan attacks those who are sold out to Jesus. Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls…
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It’s been a while…
Well…hello there. Long time it has been. There’s a perfectly good explanation, I promise. Want to delve deeper with me? Find out what has been going on and why I’ve been MIA? Of course you do…I mean…who wouldn’t! Disclaimer: This post will be full of ramblings and probably a hot mess. I’m OK with it. First things first. Buying, selling, moving. (short version) We listed our home in hopes of it selling in the summer that way kids were out of school and schedules were less hectic. Have you ever heard that God’s timing is not our timing? He’s one funny guy because our house sold in two days! (insert panic…
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Victory in the valley.
You’ve been there. In the midst of a dark valley. The fog hangs over your head. Picture it. Look around. Can you see it? Rough walls on either side. The stillness. The quite. Left and right are not options. It’s either going back to where you just came from or trekking through to what lies ahead. Which direction will you choose? Or will you not move at all? Do you become paralyzed? Are you exhausted? Overwhelmed? Doubtful? We all go through these valley’s in life. We aren’t always on the highs of the mountain tops. I firmly believe that if it wasn’t for the valley’s in life we would never…
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Breaking free.
Prison. I’m sure you will agree with me when I say that is what religion feels like. Do this, say that, don’t go that way. Shame. On. You. And that’s exactly what it feels like. I remember a time where I felt like I just couldn’t do enough of the right things for God. Almost like a diet gone bad. I’ll be really good for a span of five days then BOOM! Out of nowhere I fall “off-the-wagon” and all you know what breaks loose. Hey, your day is already shot…try again tomorrow. Then you are in a constant state of guilt and shame because you just can’t get it…
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Divorce.
It was something I never thought I would go through. I mean…why me? The person who is completely against this sort of thing. The person who firmly believes in the promise and vow made in the beginning. Why me and my kids? Why us? Divorce. It’s such an ugly word isn’t it? It’s an even uglier situation! I’m going to try to explain the emotion as best as possible but in reality no words can do justice to living the nightmare first hand. I knew we had huge amounts of issues. Issues I believed we could get past. But in 6 short years I was told that there is nothing…
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Political Madness (someone’s gotta say it).
What is going on in this country? Anyone else here just grotesquely disgusted with the hate? Even the snide comments…goodness! You know the ones. Where someone posts or says something sarcastic portraying that they are not for the new president. I guess I would ask these people where their faith was. Seems to me they’ve lost it. I mean…who are you believing in? Who are you putting your faith in? The president or God? Did God not use unqualified individuals continuously throughout the bible to bring about his great plans? Love one another. I guess I don’t see what’s so complicated about that direction. Because that’s exactly what it is…a…
